Happy Halloween!

I dressed up as Raggedy Ann today and drove to WV see the kids. When Hayden came into the house, he didn't know who I was! Even my voice - he didn't know Nana! Once he figured it was Nana, he kept telling me to take my wig off! So funny! We had a great time playing. Went to K-Mart and Wal-Mart with the kids and everyone got a kick out of seeing Raggedy Ann! It was a really fun time! I needed to smile! And I got alot of hugs too!

I stopped at the Post Office to check my mail and a little girl yelled across the street at me "I love your hair!" (I crocheted the wig part and then latch hooked all the yarn tails on it!) Then as I was leaving, an older woman coming into the Post office parking lot, yelled "Love your Costume!". So here I sit at home, all dressed up and no where to go! hahaha But it was a fun, fun day with Hayden. He is dressing up as Woody from Toy Story!

Hayden's Bone Marrow Transplant

Chris called me early this morning to tell me that Hayden goes for his bone marrow transplant in 3 weeks. He was crying when he called. We all knew it was coming in Nov. or Dec. But reality just hit us. So he will be in Children's Hospital (Washington, DC) throughout the holidays and staying at the Ronald McDonald House after his treatment. The Dr's want him close to the hospital. He's in Children's right now getting his IV dose of IGg. Chris, Hayden and I are taking a road trip tomorrow - so happy I get to spend time with my boys!

Thanks to everyone for all your cards, gifts, and prayers for Hayden. Please continue to keep him in your prayers! Thank you again from all of Hayden's family!

A funny to share...

A friend of mine shared this on Facebook, just had to pass it on! So funny...

Happy "would have been" Anniversary

Today "would have been" mine and Chuck's 9th anniversary together. It's been the hardest 10 days without him. 10 days of tears. But I'm ok, as ok can be. I went to the grocery store the other day and a song came on. The words hit me so hard. Trace Adkins - "Help Me Understand". I started crying in the store. I wanted to run out. But I paid for the groceries and left. People looking at me like I was crazy.

On our first date, Chuck took me to the Grottos. Because I love Angels. He said it was a test. That if I loved this place, we would be fine. It was a beautiful place. So peaceful. Our first kiss was by the statue by the entrance. Was so afraid the Nuns would come running after us - so funny! Then he took me to the Elizabeth Ann Seaton Center. Another beautiful place to visit. After our visit there, he took me to my favorite restaurant for dinner - Cracker Barrel!

Only memories now to hold onto now........

I thanked God everyday for the past nine years for bringing Chuck into my life, only to be gone in a heartbeat. I'm going to the Grottos today to visit memories and thank God for letting me have these past nine years with Chuck and pray for peace, healing, and understanding.

My family and friends tell me to let go, there's nothing more I can do. I will always love him. There will be no other. But my heart isn't ready to let go.

Happy "would have been" Anniversary Chuck - I will always love you!

Thru my Heartache, I'm on Cloud Nine!

Tomorrow will be a week since Chuck broke up with me. Nine years gone over another woman on Facebook and those stupid games. It's been a very tough week. I'm trying hard to move on. But memories just eat me up inside. I lost the love of my life. His birthday is next Sunday and I'm already doing the "what if's"...

ANYWAY...

Today I received a letter from Virginia State Senator, Jill Holtzman Vogel, of the 27th District about my charity, HeartFelt Angels. I want to share this with all the members of HeartFelt Angels, friends, families, and hospitals we serve:

Dear Elizabeth:

I wanted to send you a note to commend you for all of efforts to help families that are in need. Also, I wanted to congratulate you on a wonderful article about you in the Northern Virginia Daily. I know that this is my second note to you, but you are a great inspiration and you are very deserving of the continued recognition!

HeartFelt Angels is a great project and I applaud all of the selfless acts you and others who support local families in need of infant clothing.

Congratulations again and please do not hesitate to contact me if I can ever be of help in any way.

Sincerely,

Jill H. Vogel

(Side notation) Congrats again!!

*** Can you tell why I'm on cloud nine? This was what I needed to bring a smile to my face and into my heart again. I bounced around the house like a little kid - "Look what I got"!

My charity needs me, my family and friends needs me, and I am appreciated for HeartFelt Angels and the work we do for so many people. So... back to crocheting for the babies!!!

A Beautiful Reminder...

I had some business to do down town. When approaching the front doors to the building, something told me to look down. There at my feet was this tiny, yet beautiful leaf. I looked around and all the leaves close to me were old, crumpled, broken, scattered. I picked it up and carefully carried it with me. I shared it with the clerk and she said "How precious!" I told her I thought the colors were so pretty, I just had to pick it up! She told me "One of those stop and smell the roses moment!"

When I walked back outside, I looked on the ground and all the leaves were the same. Not one leaf had the beautiful colors as the tiny leaf that caught my attention. None of the trees around the property had this leaf either.

The picture doesn't do it justice - the colors are beautiful!

I soon began thinking that all the leaves I saw on the ground, each one held a different problem I am going through right now. In the center, was this beautiful leaf. A simple, yet beautiful reminder from God: that throughout all troubles, hope remains, and He is always with me!