Where does time go????

Where in the world does time go?

It's been 2 years since the love of my life, ^Hayden^, has passed away. 2 years. Doesn't seem possible. My heart is still empty without him. I miss his smiles, his laughter, him saying my name, watching him blow kisses to people - that I taught him to do. I miss him. But I know he is with GG and they are having fun in Heaven. My Mom and I made a pinky promise and I know she followed thru. I know ^i^

It's been a year since my Mom passed away and her birthday is coming up April 14th. She would have been 76 years old. I miss her so much. More than anyone knows. Just to quiet and lonely at the house. But I keep going on.

Abby is now 7 months old. They are still in MN. I miss them too. Haven't got to see her or hold her yet. But she knows her Nana's voice on the phone. So funny to hear this little girl do raspberries on the phone! Just funny!!!

And the twins! Colby and Clayton will be a year old April 27th. What a joy to see them grow and develop their own personalities. They are doing great. Next visit to Duke in May. So far, by the Grace of God, they do NOT have SCID's like ^Hayden^ had. What brings alot of joy to my heart is that I do the bunny hop song with them. I did this with ^Hayden^ and he would laugh and have the biggest smile on his face...then he would say "do gin" (do again!). Colby and Clayton love it too when I do that with them. Big smiles and laughs. Can't wait till I hear them say "do gin"!!!

Starting a new nursing job in MD next week. Yes, it's 45 miles from home, but the pay and the benefits were hard to pass up.

Still crocheting, and learning new knitting techniques. Having fun learning to knit. It's been a year too!!! But my first love will always be crochet! I'm hooked! hahahaha :)

Till the next time.... hug the ones you love and those those you don't too! :)

Day for Beth

Yesterday was a Day for Beth. I went to the Green Valley Book Fair, which opened yesterday. They were really busy! And lots and lots of great books! I went for 3 things: the crochet books, Amish fiction and cookbooks. A little disappointed on the crochet books - nothing caught my eye. And the $1.00 pamphlets were ones from last year, and not that many. So on to the Amish books - I forgot to write down the ones I already had, but found 3 I didn't have for $4! I really love reading my Amish fiction books! Next - cookbooks! I found a casserole cookbook fix it and forget it (easy for me! hahaha) and a Amish cookbook with lots of good recipes in it! Can't wait to try them! Then I found a beautiful glass picture frame that has flowers on it and the words "Mom" etched on it. I got it and know just the picture I'm putting in it. So it was a nice time at the book fair!

From there, I drove to Luray and sat at my Mom's grave for over an hour. Sat and cried, talked to her, and scratched off 5 Lottery tickets. My Mom loved to get scratch off tickets and she ALWAYS had the luck! So I stopped at 7-11 and picked up 5 to scratch off at the cemetery. Well, she didn't leave me any luck, we lost on all 5 tickets! But I had fun sitting there! Before I left, I gathered up some of the rocks that were tossed around in the dirt. I spelled out "mom" over her name plate. It's something I had to do. I can't wait to get her a head stone. I hated to leave, but I left and went over to her house. More tears. Didn't stay long there, so headed back home.

Today....

A friend has been wanting me to go with her to Never Enough Yarn, here in Winchester. A wonderful YARN store for those with champagne taste! I have a water purse! hahaha People can stop in and knit on Saturdays and Sundays. So being a new knitter, I went today. They opened at 12 noon and I left around 3pm. Had the best time and met some wonderful ladies! Experience knitters across the board. Got 3 new patterns and learned some new stitches and techniques. Had alot of fun and just daydreamed looking at all the beautiful yarn. No, I didn't get any - can't afford it! But had a really nice time out. So glad I went. I wanted to stay home and cry some more. Just so lonely without Mom here and no man in my life. (My trust in men is just shattered right now.) But I had a nice time! Chris brought me some homemade veggie soup, so will have that for dinner tonight. I'm so blessed to have Chris as my friend. She a Joyce have helped me thru alot lately. Wet shoulders from crying and all!

So...piddling around the house this evening and off to my interview tomorrow. Fingers crossed and prayers I get it! It's a nursing job in Maryland. (They pay nurses more in MD than VA and right now I need every penny I can get! Mom only had a $1000 policy and I have a big bill to pay! I'm not complaining - she's my Mom! Anything for my MOM!)