10 Years and This Is All I Get?

....a card...a simple card... that I did not open...


I spent 10 years of my life with this man. I loved him with all of my heart. I did what he wanted and asked of me. I never cheated on him, lied to him, stole anything. I was there for him.

My Mother had her surgery December 3, 2011 and he was not there for me. He was busy putting in a kitchen floor with a friend for a wife who can't stand him. She told me she "tolerates" him because he is a friend to her husband. All I got was excuses. No gas, no money for gas, don't get paid till the 15th. My Mom had a heart attack - didn't show up to be with me or Mom. She even asked about him several times. I wrote to him on the 15th to see if he was coming to visit my Mom. He was going to work late that day and going to NC to see his son graduate and wouldn't be back late Saturday. That is the LAST thing I have heard from him. I've tried several times to write to him, call him, text him, no reply at all. Just dropped off the earth as far as it comes to me and my Mom. Mom asked about us one time when she was in the hospital and I had to tell her he was gone with no explanation at all.

How can a Christian man, a Catholic man, do such a thing? I never did anything wrong to him or his family to deserve to be treated this way! I wrote to his Mother, trying to get her to see what was going on, hoping she would help him, knowing it would break her heart to hear and see what her son was doing - yet I am the worst person in the world. The entire family turned on me. He does no wrong!

I personally blame Facebook. He got on there and started playing games and then meeting women. He broke up with me twice over women on Facebook. Then the gambling at 8 different casinos. But he doesn't have a problem, so he thinks and tells everyone. Regardless what anyone says: He is a lost soul and he needs help. He needs lots of prayers. But they won't come from me anymore. I can't. He hurt me, my family, and my Mom. And he has to live with it and will face our Heavenly Father one day and be held accountable for this. No confession on earth will amend the pain he has caused to me and my family. Just as I will have to face my Heavenly Father and be held accountable for the pain I hold in my heart now. The anger I have inside over what he did to my Mom and my family. What I say and speak is the God's Honest Truth. I have no reason to lie. My trust has been shattered and I will live a lonely world to protect my heart from being broken again.

Yet today, I get a card in the mail. A simple card is supposed to erase the pain and show his sorrow in the passing of my Mother? After all that he did?

Why???

"She's Got You...."

My best friend from High School sent this to me in my email this morning. I played it three times, it is so funny! I needed a good laugh to start my day! Wanted to share it with you all!



As for my surgery, I made out pretty good. My son, Matthew, took me and was such a trooper thru it all. I couldn't have asked for a better person to help me. I had a problem in the recovery room, had to stay alittle longer than expected, but everything turned out fine. My 2 week check up went well and the Dr. told me I can ease back into my every day activities. So things are looking up. Slowly, but Shirley! I know, my name ain't Shirley! hahaha

Here is a baby blanket I just finished for a friend to give to her friend for a baby shower. I just loved the teddy bear squares! I used the varigated pastel color yarn and white. Just too cute - she loved it!

Up she goes, Up she goes....

Tomorrow I have my surgery to have my gallbladder taken out - I have gallstones. I was misdiagnosed back in November and been walking around like this ever since. Only recently was the pain too much to take and had to go to the ER. After 9 1/2 years with Chuck, he has finally left me for good. (I HATE Mafia Wars and the women of Facebook who take men away from other women!) Yes, I am heartbroken and will be for a long time. I loved him so much. But I guess I was not what he wanted after all these years, so I have to move on with my life, alone. So....

I wanted to do something totally out of the box for BETH before my surgery tomorrow. So I took a plane ride over Winchester. I had the BEST time! It was so much fun - awesome! I even got to take over the controls to fly the plane! I could have stayed up there alot longer!!! Tom took over the controls so I could get some pictures and a short video. It was just an awesome ride!!! I think I've been bitten by the flight bug! I felt like Rose from the Titantic - lol! Or Molly in "Looks Who's Talking" when she was in the plane and she says "I'm flying, I'm really flying"!!! (The second picture is flying over my neighborhood!!!)

Now...to get thru the surgery! My son Matt is taking me. We have to be there at 0530!! I'm the first case!